So some weird stuff has ben happening lately. I went through a period where I was really depressed because my boyfriend and I tried to move to California and it failed. We didn't have a place to live so we moved back to the East Coast. Anyways before I left I was hanging with a crowd for a bit at the local music club, mostly just because I wanted to connect before leaving. So I don't drink but have always enjoyed music. So even though many of my friends drank and partied I just appreciated the musical things we had in common. So anyways we came back from Cali and I feel into a deep depression. I was embarrassed and disappointed. So I didn't connect with peeps partly because of that, but mostly because I was really trying to separate myself from the drinking scene. If I didn't do any of that, why was I subjecting myself to it I thought? I had one friend who I lived with before leaving but she was a big alcoholic and had a son that was dying from cancer. She was the type of person who needed attention from men and people all the time. Anyways I kept getting the feeling that she was feeding off my good energy and expecting me to fix her. I tried to help her son by suggesting to her some nutritional changes, organic foods and such. She was spending most of time in bars and her money on alcohol. She was loving and stood by her son but i think she started to give up. So anyways I couldn't be around the self defeating attitude and drinking so I feel out of the scene. Her son died and I didn't know or else I wouldv'e gone to the funeral to pay my respects, peeps were upset I could tell, but I didn't know. So anyways now it's all water under the bridge and we're all cool again. I've done lots of work on myself healing my severe ezcema from the Cali trip and worked on my judgemental attitude(Aquarius) and have learned to accept peeps for who they are. I've accepted that everyone has life lessons and I can't interfere. So in saying that I invited a bunch of them over for a game night but no one responded. They all said they wanted to hang out sometime, but I get the feeling they'd rather drink. I'm not sure, but my boyfriend thinks so too. He thinks I pose a mirror for them and it freaks them out. I always try to come from a place of love but I don't want to subject myself or lower myself just to connect with others on lower frequencies. So yesterday my boyfriend and I were discussing our lifestyle. We eat healthy, don't drink, but love music, art, and an occasional video game. We also love drumming and dancing. We can't seem to find anyone who's into healthy living and good clean fun. I feel very beside myself. I miss my old friends but we seem so different. I do feel at times they feel threatened by my progress. At first I thought is that ego tystical...but it's not I have excellent intuition, it seemed realistic feeling. Even our family thinks we should make sacrafices around the holidays regarding food. We have worked very hard to build a healthy foundation for ourselves, yet we feel not many others around us are interested in doing the same. Anyone else experience this?